Tuesday, February 14, 2006


a lot has been going on with me this past month. i found my rapist online. had an internet conversation with him through emails. 2/15 is the 6th anniversary of the event. i'm having a hard time.


At 10:39 AM, Blogger Erin said...

Nikki - I know I am probably the only person who is going to step up and say this. Please understand that I am saying this in a supportive way, not in a downgrading way. I know this is important to you, but please consider that this guy isn't normal. He probably doesn't think of it night and day like you do. If he had a heart he wouldn't have done it in the first place. Its sort of like loving someone who doesn't love you back. Its hard to understand feelings of someone on the other side of the fence (ie why don't they look at it the way that I do?) I just don't want to see you keep living your life around something that impacts you this much, knowing it doesn't impact him. Don't give him the satisfaction.

At 11:18 AM, Blogger Anna said...

I want to say something supportive, but I'm not really sure if I can say anything that would help, not having gone through this myself. So I'm just going to say that I'm really sorry you had that experience at all, and you know we're all here for you in any way we can be. You are an amazing person. You're in my thoughts and prayers today.

At 3:02 PM, Blogger nikki the red said...

thanks guys. i am back in counseling, which is helping. my counselor thinks i'm finally working thru this thing. i'm also joining a group of rape survivors. should be interesting.


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